Melancholy

Here I am, on the brink of melancholy yet again. And I've been brooding. I think I've come to a decision. I've decided that I'll do it.
//DREAD. FEAR. DOUBT.
I think I'll do it soon. But my mind is not at rest, for questions linger on.
//WILL I FOLLOW IT THROUGH TO THE END? OR WILL MY RESOLVE BE WEAKENED?
All I can do now is wait. But the wait alone is slowly killing me.
//TO MY FRIENDS. SHOULD I LOSE MY SANITY, I HAVE BUT ONE REQUEST.
I don't know if I can wait any longer.... And yet, it all began, 3 years ago.
//ERASE ME.