Random Rambling # 2

So, I've finally gotten off my lazy ass and decided to post this. Yes, it is a Wednesday. Yes, I am using my brother's laptop. But that doesn't matter. What's imporatant was that while I was lazing around, I remembered some things that I'd rather not divulge.... or want to remember. It's seems pretty ironic. People forget what they want to remember, but in my case, my brain randomly fires off a memory from a long time ago. Most of them are.... questionable.

These memories also triggers my (probably) overactive mind and I start to wonder: What would have happened if I didn't do what I did? Would everything that has happened and that will happen in my life have been different if I made a different choice? Of course, I always think about very.... peculiar topics such as what happens to an individual's identity once their bodies pass on, or if life itself was a mistake caused by evolution or that there is something that made everything so complex.

Anyway, I was thinking of something when a memory resurfaced. I won't say when or who the person who asked me this was. A girl asked me a yes/no question. The question was something I never would have expected at the time. When I didn't answer, which I presume was like a No to her, she told me she was joking, although a small part of me didn't believe that. Like I said, remembering the question made me wonder what would have happened if I had said Yes? Would everything now have changed?

Such is the mystery of life. However, there is theory states that for every choice made, a new timeline or universe is made to fit the choice. If that were true, think of the billions of timelines created just by one choice. Multiply by several millions of choices and multiply that by billions of people. So basically, you could say I believe that theory. It would be nice however, to be able to peer into another timeline to see what would have happened if an event never happened or a different choice was made. I sure as hell wish I could do that.

After all, I know I've made plenty of choices and I regret some of them. For looking back over my 17 years of life, I can't help but feel like a betrayer. What I regret, only I will know.

Congratulations to Jun Wai-sama for deciphering the whole thing (Though I have no idea if you got it in the correct order). There, I changed it. Now the everyone will know that you deciphered the message in 20 minutes, you Stalker.

BTW, I made the whole thing up so I could use the word "Mask of the Betrayer". Talk about boredom. But what is it? Wiki it. For you lazy people, it's the first expansion pack of Neverwinter Nights 2. And yes, I am downloading it. Only 1 GB to go!

P.S. I don't know if I'm the only one, but the whole post seems to be pretty depressing in tone. I assure you though, I am not depressed or emo. In fact, I'm pretty excited that Jun Wai has revealed the identity of his wife to me and the King!

Happy 26th of April!